YouTube star Brittani Boren Leach is mourning the death of her three-month-old son Crew after he was found unresponsive while napping on Christmas Day.
Leach’s next post featured her in tears while sitting beside Crew in the hospital, revealing to her followers that he was “stable” and that “the ventilator is breathing for him.”
“Crew’s tiny earthly body is still with us, although I know he’s already dancing and playing in Heaven,” Leach wrote. “We have some hard decisions to make over the next 12 hours, that no parent should ever have to make. We need prayer now, more than before, specifically prayers for peace and clarity on the decisions that have to be made, and for our hearts, the pain is unbearable.”
“I keep thinking that I will wake up from this nightmare, but I don’t,” she added. “The outpouring of love and support has been astounding and we cannot even comprehend the amount of love we have been shown.”
In two more posts, Leach detailed the heartache of her son being gone and the process of the doctors running tests on him to take his organs for donations. In one photo, she laid in bed beside Crew while he was still alive, while another showed her on the ground in the hospital, her knees pulled up to her face.
“It’s all just too much. All of it,” she captioned the second post. “I know God has a plan for this, but I’m really really mad at him right now. I cry behind the bathroom door while Jeff holds me, because in the room over everyone else gets to laugh and go on with their lives, and it makes me so angry.”
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On her Instagram Story Sunday, Leach said that they were still at the hospital and that the “process of organ donation is not always quick.” The next day, she said that the hospital staff would be lined up against the walls as Crew gets his organs donated at noon on Monday.
Leach posted more photos on her Instagram Story of various food and drinks that were donated to her, Jeff and their other children as they continued to wait in the hospital. Throughout the day, she also shared many sweet throwback videos of Crew and her other children from the past three months.
source: people.com
