Meri Brownis addressing where she currently stands with her husbandKody BrownonSister Wivesthis week.
On Sunday’s episode, Meri, 50, embarked on a solo trail in Flagstaff, Arizona, to “check out from everybody and everything.” As she filmed the outing herself, Meri said the Brown family “really haven’t spent much time together” amid the COVID-19 pandemic and it’s “been lonely” for her.
In separate confessionals, Kody’s three other wives shared their own feelings of loneliness while isolating away from the family. But when Kody, 52, addressed the matter, he told the cameras that he thought the “main benefit” of plural marriage would be to avoid feeling alone.
“But the way things have played out for our family, that’s not necessarily true,” he said. “My relationship with Meri is not the kind of relationship where I’m going to talk with her every day. My best guess is that her sister wives don’t feel like having any interaction with her daily either.”
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As things circled back to Meri on the trail, she detailed a recent conversation she had with Kody about their marriage.
“It just kind of came down to that we’re friends, which I guess is a good thing. It’s a good thing,” she said. “But I don’t know, I guess I just kind of have hope for more than that.”
“If I quit and I walk away, then it’s not going to get better,” she added. “I’m not going anywhere, y’all. You’re stuck with me, whether you like it or not.”
Meri then shared in a confessional that Kody implied there’s “no repairing” their relationship. And while there are days when she feels “very discouraged,” she said she still has “so much hope.”
“Through that time, I was considering every single option that I had. Leave, go do my own thing. I’ve considered everything,” she continued. “And this is where I am. This is my decision.”
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Going forward, Meri said she wants to have “a lot more interaction” with Kody.
“I feel like I’ve got some really good relationships within the family, and I’ve got some that are kind of rocky. I’ve got some that are basically non-existent,” she then said in a confessional. “I want to have a relationship with Kody where we don’t go for a week without even acknowledging each other.”
“He and I are better than this,” she continued. “I feel like our family is better than what we’re doing right now.”
Sister Wivesairs Sunday (10 p.m. ET) on TLC.
source: people.com
