Morgan Millercouldn’t be more thankful for her four sons, but if another daughter (or two!) is in her future, she will be ready.
The pro volleyball player, 32, and husbandBode Millerare parents to 3-month-old twinsAsher and Aksel, plusEaston Vaughn Rek, 16 months, andEdward Nash Skan, 4½. They also shared daughterEmeline Grier, who died following atragic drowning accident at 19 months oldin June 2018. (Bode is also dad to a son and daughter from previous relationships.)
On her Instagram Story over the weekend, Morgan shared a photo of two identical dark-blue Cat & Jack dresses, revealing the heartbreaking reason she had purchased them and how the story unfolded in an unexpected way.
“When I found out I was having twins, I may have jumped the gun,” she wrote. “That’sthe dress my daughter was wearing theday of her accident. It was her favorite dress. When we went to leave the hospital without her, I asked for her dress and they had lost it. I was heartbroken.”
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“After some time, I got online and ordered two more … one for my future daughter,” Morgan continued, with a fingers-crossed emoji, “and one for my niecewho was my daughter’s favoriteperson. When they arrived, I couldn’t decide which one to give to my niece which is absolutely ridiculous considering they were exactly the same.”
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As a result, Morgan decided to keep both dresses “for [her] future TWIN girls” and recalled, “When I found out I was pregnant with twins … you can imagine all the emotions … and thenwhen I found out they were boys… well, you can imagine all the emotions.”
Morgan shared more details about her motherhood experiences during her Instagram Q&A, including a homemade formula recipe and advice for making time for your relationship with your partner after having children.
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Morgan’s homemade formula recipe came after she shared that she’s “exclusively pumping” to feed her twins, who “only had breast milk” for the first three months. She also revealed that she endured “multiple bouts of mastitis,” and the boys are now havingboth breast milk and the homemade formula since“they are eating more.”
“The twins are now sleeping 8 p.m. to 6:30 a.m. fairly consistently,” Morgan added ofhiring a sleep consultant. “This step was really hard for me to take because I slept with all my other babies for a long time but once I got past the guilt, it was definitely the right move for us.”
“Beingsomewhat rested is a game changer,” she said. “Not only does it make it easier to show up for everyone else and myself, but it has really helped my postpartum anxiety.”
source: people.com
